This ain't an week for me at all. I'm supposed to be hitting that "TOM" this week, I'm already pretty sure this month wasn't our month and even though I've known that all along, it still sucks. Also, another girl I went to school with is now pregnant... Are you kidding me? She'll be a great mom, no doubt but geeze everyone that comes up pregnant, feels like a slap in the face for me!
On a semi-positive note, Curt and I had a long heartfelt conversation Monday night and we decided that we're going to wait on the fertility & ovulation apps because right now, that's only hurting me. We're just letting nature do its business I reckon... Its hard but that's what's best... Atleast for now.
Our apartment isn't good for a child, its barely good for me, Curt & Max! Lol... But I've been thinking alot and have decided I've GOT to get out of this negative funk! I've never been a negative person & I refuse to start now. I've got amazing people in my life, a roof over my head & food in my belly.. That's more than some people will ever have. I'm so unbelievably blessed so I need to quit all this whining and get it together! That's just what I'm going to do! :)
I hardly ever get on Pinterest seeing as how I don't have a crafty bone in my body, haha- but I did today and found this little picture & loved it! Really fits me right now. :)
I am reading this slowly from the start and already know that you have two fine children.
ReplyDeleteMy husband and I have seen friends and acquaintances create families long after we began trying for our first. I'm 29 and we started years ago including fertility treatments. We haven't had a child yet. Maybe we never will.
I understand that it was difficult throught the excitement and all of beginning to try for a few weeks, but I want to remind you of those who struggle for years, see others have a kid or two meanwhile, and still aren't even pregnant with their long anticipated first. It is... Unimaginable. It sure does sting when people just pop up pregnant, especially if young or unplanned, it hurts when cysts cause pain and symptoms that could be pregnancy but totally aren't and just f-ing hurt, and it makes a heart ache when you have to contemplate not having children.